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Everything has come to an end

Sounds like I'm going to commit suicide eh?
No.Not yet.I won't kill myself yet.
I feel so stress nowadays.Cry myself to sleep.
Don't worry,sanity is still in me but I feel derailed minded nowadays.
I don't think my home is a "home sweet home",sometimes is like a prison.
Packing my stuff,to begone from the hostel by this Friday night.
I miss someone very dearly now.His jokes.His laughter.His smile.His Voice.
His random thoughts.His hug.Everything about him.
The 1st and only guy who sings for me at skype at the middle of the night.
Some other day,I'll sing a song for you too..=)
I have this feeling of..idk,it's a deep and sad as if I can't meet him again
maybe untill next year.It's just my thought,instinct or what...?
I miss you.I miss you.Miss you.Miss you.Miss you.
Some other things are also messing up my head right now.
They make me sad,worried and so wanting-to-give-up-in-my-life feeling.
I can't list them all here.It will me make look so weak.
heh.I hate to say this..
but..
I feel so sad right now,faking a smile and laughing while inside me is dying.
Help.=((

p/s:oh,yea..before I end my post.
I got this song stuck playing in my head,Ku Seru (OST PHSM)
"Oh..Dengarlah Sayu Tangisanku
Mengapa Degupanmu Ku Seru
Kerna Kesepian
nan Terlalu
Kembalikan Hidup Yang Ku Rindu~


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