Dualism Fuel

[ As I wrote this post the weather seems too be be weeping with me. LOL. Aha. I just applied for another 2 technical courses and places where I can work & further studies at the same time.]  Now... it's just something to ponder on and I may or may not try to chase it becaus e in the end of the day, no matter how rich , intelligent , well-respected or famous you are , the size of your grave will always the same as others . So be humble.   You can only take   3 t h i n g s into the grave which are; good deeds, knowledge and prayers from your loved ones once your body is buried. Everything in this world is indeed temporary and Life is merely a test for Us, as human being. It's like a simulated reality with no reverse & rewind button.  I am lacking of support when it comes to pursue my dreams. There are indeed group of people cheering for me, but not as much as from my family. They always said I took too long or too stupid to figure out what I want ...

[I dedicated this post to all my friends and readers. Part 3 of my long wrenching struggle. It's somewhere full with uncertainty and in confusion?] Have you ever been in two state of contrasting situation at the same time? The extreme of feeling happy and sadness, in parallel. Mirroring each other. It's as almost as impossible to think the outcome and layers of well-being I could become but I too, had tried to disperse negativity away. Each time I tried to think positively that I could heal my sickness; mental and physical, I would end up miserably crying. I don't really see the purpose of having a long term goal anymore nor wanting to live my life fully as myself in a happy version. I'm currently an image of what people expect me to be. I am expected to act smart, cheerful and rational all the time. Too much expectations, it really breaks me from the inside.Mind you, my social medias are just for mere camouflage and keeping in touch with the outside world or ...

Psst! This post is regarding my first mini-story with the theme of unrequited love. Since I'm also a fan of sappy yet tragic story,so I wrote this one last year,during the holidays. I went a bit different somehow,written in a guy point of view towards a girls. Turns out it made some of my friends  after reading it went saying , " Oh,Moon..this is a sad touching story!" The way I see it? Here's a few. Sad but cute.Guys are very hideous in retaining their true intention,making them the most "unreadable" person yet complex person on Earth. Not all guys do want their girl to suffer together with them,they rather let go of them while still watching or wondering/thinking over them in a distant away. Guys want girls to know that they're loving you,no matter how too late or how fucked up things had happened in between them. Sounds like I'm being bias to guys rather than to girls eh?No,that's just how I review this story. Personal opinions of mi...