I admit that my life has turned upside down. They say if you're in a war, you have to prepare for one last streak of battle. The combo, the finising part. The prestige. When my friends asked me whether I have finished my studies or not, what are you doing now? Where are you? I cannot even smile or just plainly answering them. I still on my way. They have high expectations or no idea of what I'm doing. I am going through hard times and I need to rediscover myself, People are not capable to understand what we go through unless we tell them. So here I AM. I am reaching out to you. Emotions and feelings are the hardest to explain in words but you can let people feel what you feel. At the moment I arrived in Kuching, I knew that I have to find strength and hang on as long as I can, No friends. No more dates. No more laughing. No more hearing jokes. Just plainly me and my demonic side to overcome and walk this excruciating route. This place wher