Dualism Fuel

The epitome of Us Our foretold tale of Love and Stories , You are my epitome of Joy , A supernova , A phenomena , I cannot fathom yet, The begone years taught me, Of Love, Despair and Trust Suffering, yet still alive Holding onto my beliefs intact, To breath you into my life, For once and forever, Of Heavens granting my prayers, To ease my finding along this journey, Full of crazy malady and ironic cycle Oh, dear  beloved muse , You are half of my world,  Half of everything in me Have you thought I'd crawl, I break into pieces, Hit into walls, Get all shattered everywhere, Just to be whole again, At brink of my existence, To complete Our Purpose , As a unit, as a synergy Two beating hearts as one, In the moment I saw Miracle When I saw our Destiny , Of years and endless love, Adventures and precious moments Untill the end of Time , Beyond forever. I belong to you. To us.

{*sound of keyboard typing* At 5 am.} Composing more articles to write and studying on how to pass an editor's test. I think I am more comfortable working on odd hours since my recurring fever subsided and my back stop hurting. Oh,in the meantime, working on a application where I can collaborate and publish my work or ideas to a few websites. I need a proper platform to start on my own personal brand and portfolio of my articles, fiction, poem and Lifehack pro tips and tutorials. I had plans to start collaborating with my friends on their You tube channel this year or just help them in setting up anything. I will have to work around to find time and opportunity to brainstorm ideas with them. It could be a vlog, promoting your hobbies or products or broadcasting your hobbies, causes and ideas. But hey, let's arrange things bit by bit? I wrote a book last year but the whole process didn't went well. I lost all of my draft backup copies and due to my hea...

[ I was terribly triggered by the time I wrote this. So,I advised people who has mild depression and low self-esteem to stay away from reading melancholic blog post like this. It’s bad for your health,Okay?PG18+ post ahead. lolz ] What did actually happened  from May- September 2016? I was hoping the effects of medication to wear off. I meant; by the hallucinations and strange voices I heard every single night, it feels like I’m going down, to the brink of insanity. My mother thought I was happy and calm person, due to my repressive nature of trying to function well. She was surprised why my state of saying, “I'm okay” hasn’t changed even for a bit for all these years. She would try to do anything to see my reactions and how it’s like to be triggered. There are days when I isolated myself from speaking or communicating from anyone despite I was online 24/7. I usually post things on my facebook, mostly on  major "heavy" topic  materials, science articles, tech n...

A life full of debts and living in fear. It's not about how I am dealing with life here. But the people. The tragedies and how I am paranoid and succumb to my own  dark shadows. Inner demons. If there is such thing as freedom. It's called "Truth" Truth really hurts, but it shall set us free. Free from being haunted or guilt. I am willing to give myself away, for that chance to be free. Right now, I'm living in a difficult situation that no one can help me. Everyone around me has their own agenda. Sadness, problems, inner conflicts, dilemma. And I wonder, having a significant other right now.. does it make the situation really better?  Life teaches us to be wise and resilient but along the way, the rise and falls.. It's lonely, it's dark.. and the ones who can save you is.. Yourself. So think, if I had a new order of time, to reset all of my past mistakes. I wouldn't do too much for others, I wouldn't love others who will...

Psst! This post is regarding my first mini-story with the theme of unrequited love. Since I'm also a fan of sappy yet tragic story,so I wrote this one last year,during the holidays. I went a bit different somehow,written in a guy point of view towards a girls. Turns out it made some of my friends  after reading it went saying , " Oh,Moon..this is a sad touching story!" The way I see it? Here's a few. Sad but cute.Guys are very hideous in retaining their true intention,making them the most "unreadable" person yet complex person on Earth. Not all guys do want their girl to suffer together with them,they rather let go of them while still watching or wondering/thinking over them in a distant away. Guys want girls to know that they're loving you,no matter how too late or how fucked up things had happened in between them. Sounds like I'm being bias to guys rather than to girls eh?No,that's just how I review this story. Personal opinions of mi...