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Randomenss # 1

I think:


  • I live in my own crazy lunatic random world of unplanned adventure and actions.
  • I don't like to be too girlish.I don't like being too boyish either.
  • I like keeping my mouth shut when my head is too confused or worried but it hurts to do that.
  • I hate to burden people with my trouble,untill trouble kills me slowly.
  • I love Star Wars but aslo still I think Star Trek is cool.
  • I love Dante's attitude but I lust for Vergil cold and when he slashes using his fucking awesome yamato says,"die!"
  • I cried for my dad's voice saying,"pa polah?" when I miss him and yearn for my mom's praise for years if I'm away from them for too long.
  • I love Katanas,Revolver,swords but I hate dagger and arrow and bow.
  • I picture the perfect date is to laugh,tease,sing,and talk all the time with that special someone.
  • I feel like wanting to duet a song with anyone who's serious in singing.
  • Friendhip and dating are related somehow.
  • I want to be a very L337 in my community and start my own haxoring group.
  • My roomates is the best roomate ever.They don't give a shit on what I'm doing and so helpful.They cheer me up in a very unique way.
  • I feel happy when I have money and when I'm broke I feel so miserable.
  • My bestfriends is still my bestfriends.
  • My ex is still my ex but he's trying to ruin my life by giving away my handphone number to get my attention again.This is what happens when a player mets an ex player.
  • I want to eat ice-cream goreng and stop eating instant noodle.
  • I should go wild and run while screaming at the beach saying,"I'M FREE!"
  • I should ask my dad to buy a new phone or give anything that is touchscreen for me.
  • I want to spent my time playing games but I have so much chores,work to be done.
  • I feel like playing Spore and Supermarket mania till I feel satisfied.
  • I want to do something from the anarchy and test it.
  • I fall in love with a fictional tv series character Glee.which is Artie.He's so good in raping and nerdish/smart/geeking looking with a voice.Aww.[even tho he uses a wheelchair in that tv show].<>
  • I want to have my own channel in youtube and be an internet star.
  • I still think Ryan Tedder is one of my favourite composer and admired him a lot.
  • I feel like watching Love Story 2050 again

and so on..alu gila.hahah.XDD

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