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Sappy

It's the combination of the word "happy" and "sad"
It's always the thing in me..hahaha.Stop it.
I'm sad that letting go of something and someone,
and also the past,
The past is something I can't forget,
and no matter how bad or screwed up I am,
it's always me,myself and I picking up the pieces that was
scattered and rebuild myself up.
It's like how I'm trying hard not to do anything that
will ever contradicted myself but failed..but,
I managed to find strength and solution while in deep shit.
I'm wondering why sometimes that it is always like that.
The way geminians sees the world is DIFFERENT.
We are different coz we are complex and hard to predict.
We have similarity in our behavior and the way we think.
How are we struggling battling our own self and self-contradiction
idiosyncrasy.
and I believe,most of us have our own inner strength
that we never even realized in possession,
It always lies within us.
Well,I'm feeling really old for my age.I read too much stuffs
and analysis and philosophy about humans.
Uhhh..
well,I want to concentrate my mind on the things I suppose to do.
My final Exam.Wish me luck.
I'll do my best in all my papers.=))

Good luck and All the best for my beloved friends.Chaiyok2!

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