Dualism Fuel

So,I'm here again blogging. This is sem gonna be tough. What if I said that I'm in love,again? but not wanting to admit it. I'm afraid to fall in love again. Yes,I started to like him, to appreciate him more. Repeat paper,MAT112. Parents invading my privacy. My ex,joining the debate again. I feel nothing at all.Numb as hell. Things change.He is already my past. Hope? I don't know what to expect. What to see,what to feel. I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing. Fallcy much eh? Define me.Much more haywired than I am. Till again.

I'm so bored right now.So,I'm posting about this for our general knowledge.Let's see. . Illuminati telah ditubuhkan pada 1774 di perancis oleh adam weishaupt yg merupakan seorg profesor di universiti Ingoldstald. . perkataan illuminati dinisbahkan kpd salah satu drpd kumpulan (Mazhab) Yahudi iaitu kumpulan illuminati yang dianggotai oleh oleh golongan bijaksana (Hukama’) Yahudi... manakala di dalam bahs Arab pula illuminati bermaksud al-Nuraniyin. ... nama illuminati ini diambil sempena nama Iblis yang pd hemat mereka sebagai pemerintah tunggal alam ini... pusat pentadbirannya ialah di segitiga bermuda yg menjadi tmpt tinggal Dajjal laknatullah. ..Lambang pertubuhan ini ialah apa yg terdapat pada duit 1 dolar US... lmbang yg ade pada duit US tersebut menunjukkan bahawa US telah dikuasai oleh bangsa Yahudi... sebenarnya, pereka cipta duit US dilakukan oleh seorang anggota freemasonry dari pergerakan illuminati yg bernama pat robertson. Pertubuhan ini tlh mendpt soko...

2011, Yep.Today is the first day of lecture. I really don't know what to say. I'm still homesick.I still miss home. I hate staying in UiTM. But guess what? My target for this sem is 4.0. I will reach it,even if I got a repeat subject. Maybe I'm not gonna be in debate tournament this sem, but I will hang out and debate when I have the opportunity I want to adjust some stuff and adapt with the subjects, I must survive this semester.My life depends on it, As on the 6th June,I want to have  my perfect life.. I mean,the freedom and all. Enough for the trouble and heartache that I caused in 2010, starting from scratch is hard,but believe me.. It's nothing to compare to what I've been through. Thanks 2010, You give me the chance to feel life the way it is, I enjoyed the moment that I had, things I never did as a teenager due to my parents policy, and glad that it didn't last, Coz I know somehow it affects my study  I'll wait for someone who i...

It's been a long,long time since I been on here. Define me the term corrupt. Anything can get corrupted. Mind,soul,programs and almost everything that  you could consider can get into the state of corrupt,getting corrupted. The question is, am I corrupted too? Been thinking lately, I think.yeah.I am partially corrupted. I need to be corrupted, not entirely but only a small parchment of my soul have been such a pain to handle and fixed up.We're talking about doing such things as principle of the double effect.Only to find that we're making the situation screwed up.fucked up.So,we're a bit choked up,by ourself. In that state,we may also find our guitly pleasure. I don't know.Hard to resist.Addicting. In the state of corruption,it is possible for you to contradict yourself,doing things against your own will and principle,just to find yourself a lil bit more powerful and energetic. But we know,the power and energy for sure come from the negative sources. Whatever that m...

"Say it for me,say it to me..I'll leave this life behind me Say it if it's worth savin' me.."

636. Yes. You again.I hate you but I love you. My head really loves you.My heart really hate you and love you at the same time.. But love it..it still doesn't change a thing. Love is a crazy thing for me.It made me smile.It made me cry. It made me feel tormented.I just enjoy it to the extreme. Hey..I'm just touched you say I'm a good girl. Hey..I don't know how to make up with a guy,especially it's you. I don't know what to do,step by step.Teach me eh?Not that  I don't want to..I just really don't know how to.but I love the idea. Hey..I talk dirty things,but never tempted practice it. I'm not turn on yet to do 'turn-on-stuff'. Making out is dirty eh? Hey..I want to learn,teach and share a lot of things with you. Hey..I think we can be good friends,if you can't except the fact I love you. B'coz you are worth knowing. That's okay.I always have been hurt like this,everytime I fight for the real thing, some of it worth it.some of it n...

M r .R @ 636, " Why love if losing hurts too much?It’s just nice to know someone is always there for us"  — Yes.I never intended to fall in love with you.I never said a thing about being your girlfriend.I never want to hurt you.I’m tired of having relationship with guys,but I promise you,I can be your special someone,a best friend and lover at the same time.I’m ready to open up and let you in.But,will you walk your way in and do the same thing?I might be here for you now,but who knows,here right now..gone tomorrow?Maybe I’ll be dead or what.I don’t really care.I feel it’s useless not having someone special that I’ve been searching for.I’m always upset by the fact hearing so much rumors about you but I know you will somehow explain to me.I’m always here waiting.I go crazy for you laughter and voice.You deserve the world,but I can give you ME.I know..deep inside you,lies a very loving,exciting and unique character.I searched for that in every guy I’ve been flirting and playin...