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2011

2011,
Yep.Today is the first day of lecture.
I really don't know what to say.
I'm still homesick.I still miss home.
I hate staying in UiTM.
But guess what?
My target for this sem is 4.0.
I will reach it,even if I got a repeat subject.
Maybe I'm not gonna be in debate tournament this sem,
but I will hang out and debate when I have the opportunity
I want to adjust some stuff and adapt with the subjects,
I must survive this semester.My life depends on it,
As on the 6th June,I want to have  my perfect life..
I mean,the freedom and all.
Enough for the trouble and heartache that I caused in 2010,
starting from scratch is hard,but believe me..
It's nothing to compare to what I've been through.
Thanks 2010,
You give me the chance to feel life the way it is,
I enjoyed the moment that I had,
things I never did as a teenager due to my parents policy,
and glad that it didn't last,
Coz I know somehow it affects my study 
I'll wait for someone who is worth and appreciates me
more that I can give and take.
He'll be around.I just need to find him,
but that's not my main priority,
My aim is for study.
And when the time comes,
I will settle down with that special romantic partner.
So,2011
be good to me,
Like I always look forward to meet you.
xoxo

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