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#2.8 Forth letter

Hi again,

My life partner and soulmate,
Ikhwan Faiz, ❤️

This is the 4th letter from me to you, sayang. I know all of my letters are reflecting on my dreams and spirituality that I wanted to share with you. So that it will be relevant anytime you read this if you feel uninspired, sad or wanted to be reminded of my love to you. Maybe when our kids grow up, you can share my letters to them and talk about how you feel every time you read it. I know I'm very far-sighted and visionary, but I only wanted you to have the best optimism about everything in Life, together with me. I want to share everything I felt deeply inside with you, and no one else but God. All of my private thoughts and unspoken words.  That's a privilege held by soulmate. He is very special to me. 

What's more better than having a good husband, loving children, peaceful life and having a job that you enjoy doing while making a difference in this world? Nothing. To me, my husband and my family will be most treasured possession ever given by God to me. I'm not attached by other worldly things that I tasted before and I want to live modestly despite having wealth later in Life (if God Wills), I will still choose to love and nurture my soulmate/husband and children to live their life happily and striving to give their best in whatever they do as a human being. 

I wanted a life full of laughter, jokes, smiles, adventures and encouragement although we will be tested by obstacle, challenges and dealing with relationships of people around us. We must live life to the fullest and be grateful for each moment we breath in. Life is too short to worry and be upset about anything bad that happens. Every bad things and difficult people teach you to become more wiser and compassionate, but also to reflect on your spirituality and growth. As we grow older, we realized that the small things around us that makes our world a little brighter. A hug. A smile. A thank you. And so many simple gestures.

I want to be the women that makes you believe that this world isn't that cruel after all. When we found each other, I knew the whole universe has decided it is our time to love and be one as a unit. We are separated by Time and Distance, but our love is a very strong divine force that pull us each other closer each day. The time whereby I will feel that I cannot be apart from you anymore is when we lived together as husband and wife will be arriving soon. I will look forward to each day and seconds to our wedding and solemnization as your wife every I feel you are physically miles away and longing for your touch and love. Not a dreamer, but you are the man who came into my life and changes every unseen perspective yet strengthening my faith and believe in Our Lord, The Most Merciful and Generous, Almighty Allah. Every moment since then, you breath more Light and mercy on my soul. I really shine and becoming more alive because of our love. 

You are my beginning. My ending. 
Simply by being the half of me and everything that I am.

Yours forever,
Munira Jasmin.

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  1. ikh1August 2, 2021 at 10:11 AM

    Hi Cik Munira Jasmin,
    Kata nk tido?? Sayang, aku sendiri dah fully commit to our life together. I am prepared to have a life with you. Aku harap kau dpt lihat segala yang terbaik dalam aku dan aku mahu beri segala yg terbaik utk kau. Having a wonderful wife like you is what i dream. and to have children together is something i truly want. Im ending my search for that perfect women with you. kau pengakhir pencarian cinta aku dan pemula utk segala cinta yg akan aku curahkan kepada keluarga kita. Jadi isteri aku dan buat aku bahagia. dan aku akan jd suami kau, dan akan membahagiakan kau. dan kerana dunia ini tempat ujian, akan aku jd kekuatan buat kau dan kau akan jd kekuatan utk aku. Jannah is there. it's time to grab it together.

    Salam Sayang.
    Ikhwan Faiz

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