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Intro to duality?

I wish I could tell people the things I wrote
in the internet and my blogs are my real feelings,
Sometimes,my dear..
I wish I could tell those words to the person that I refer to..
For me,I'm a human puzzle,a very confusing personality,
an entity,a symbol of dualism,a human with a lot of personalities,
and I can change it in a very,very fast way..
If overwhelm,I would do things that could harm me in the first place
and regret about it later,
I'm just a very complicated personality,
I don't really like people seeing me too good,nor too bad..
I rather look bad so that people can't see my vulnerable side,
people always like to prejudge what I do,
misunderstand and misinterpreting the things I do,or say..
I really want to be a symbol or something to people who have a complicated
personality like me,I'm just too hard to be understand by certain people,
and sometimes,we don't have any chemistry at all,
they were never meant to be my friends at the first place,
and they're people who doesn't realize that their idiosyncrasy is just
a simple thing to be interpret.
I want to make a change,I want people to respect me as the way i am,
I'm a diplomatic person but if the person did something that I can't longer accept,
he/she will be a stranger to me..or as if I never ever meet him in this life,
I could fake a smile,I could pretend to be okay,
I could forgive and learn to forget,I accept the worst thing could happen
with the support of people and friends around me,
I found that I'm feeling okay,if I talk a lot to people and hear their perceptive,
easier for me to make a conclusion,and think deeply,
I don't want to be something in my past,I want to move forward towards
the light,where half of myself lies..
I'm just a very contradicting person in my own thoughts and feelings,
I like to think how,why and what happened even if I know I'm following my
instinct and conscience,I still do..
one word:Intricate!!!Argh..=DD

and I wonder how many people like me in this earth??I really wanna meet them,
see myself in a human mirror..and then I can judge myself.

geezz..
What a deep and personal thoughts right?
but this is me,I'm complicated.=DD
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