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Confess

If we could just confess what goes to into
your mind,
you could not lie to your heart,
but sometimes rather yet the truth hurts,
and you know what lies ahead,
You couldn't bear to see it,
feel it,hear it,visualize it,picture it,
So in my situation,I'm just to scared to
picture the truth of something
I'm sure,it is for real and I never regret it,
It's the best thing ever happened to me,
yet it hurts so much,
Can you relate how duality affects me?
I wanted to do it,yet I was refraning myself
and it was me,myself playing the role..
whether to do it,or not to do anything about it,
Have you been loving or hating yourself at the same
time?
Well,if you have..
You are in my position right now.
Set it up in chur mind!
I'm just a very confusing personality indeed,
to those around me,
I always said that over and over again!
Chey.haha.I don't know how to describe how
I behave,coz I have the ability to change mood
and anything about myself the wind.
And right now,my heart is..kinda messed up.
I just hope that he's the one can understand
and cope up with the intricate facts and
behavior about me.
Not all people stand a gemini,
They will get so f*cked up,that they will
think..who am I?which real is for real?
hahaha.
Think again readers.
We have many sided,but only those are close to me
really knows who,how and why I behave in such a way.
Now wish me luck to clear up my mind.
It kinda too "full" right now..hee~~=DDD

Comments

  1. MINAKICHUSeptember 28, 2010 at 11:29 AM

    Hi I like the way you think, very interesting! You truly epitomize your blog's name. Keep it up! :-)

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