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Trust.



Internal monologue:
The word trust isn't applicable and plausible,
to measure your sincerity.
Here I am.

Wondering among thousand of humans,
Have they felt so low and in a dark place,
for so long, like the way I feel now.
As cryptic and secretive I may sound like,
We wanted a fair play while a correct measurement
to work as a functional human being.
Are you one of a million whom I will feel safe with?




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