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Oh 636.Hey.You.

636.
Yes.
You again.I hate you but I love you.
My head really loves you.My heart really hate you
and love you at the same time..
But love it..it still doesn't change a thing.
Love is a crazy thing for me.It made me smile.It made me cry.
It made me feel tormented.I just enjoy it to the extreme.
Hey..I'm just touched you say I'm a good girl.
Hey..I don't know how to make up with a guy,especially it's you.
I don't know what to do,step by step.Teach me eh?Not that 
I don't want to..I just really don't know how to.but I love the idea.
Hey..I talk dirty things,but never tempted practice it.
I'm not turn on yet to do 'turn-on-stuff'.
Making out is dirty eh?
Hey..I want to learn,teach and share a lot of things with you.
Hey..I think we can be good friends,if you can't except the fact I love you.
B'coz you are worth knowing.
That's okay.I always have been hurt like this,everytime I fight for the real thing,
some of it worth it.some of it never did work.some of it remain unspoken.
You drive my brain wild.I just really want to talk to you in real life..
It's so boring chatting with you.I want to see you again,
and nah,I'll be very open with you.
It's hard hiding my thoughts like this.everytime.

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