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BOOMBOX

BOOMBOX.Sounds like I'm mad eh?Nope.
It's a song from The Lonely Island ft. Julian Casablancas.
I have fallen in love with this song lyrics.
Music UNITES us all.Music knows no boundary.Music has its meaning
and value to us.It represent us all in every aspect and angle of life.
Music = P.I.E
Powerful.Influencing.Enchanting.
I listen to songs not only when I'm happy or in love but
when I'm sad,mad,depress,heart broken,
and disturbed.
I still have the feeling to just want to be a musician someday.
Be it a singer,composer or songwriter.
and at least join and play in a band in my lifetime.
I just want to get myself involve in music.I love singing.
not in the shower.but in my room,in front of the mirror.
I wish I could sing in front millions and entertain others,
but I'm just afraid that if suddenly I can't hold enough breath
and spoil the song.
It has been my passion.My dream.
It has driven me to learn playing the piano,flute,harmonica,
gambelan,drum so far and I want to keep learning
playing all the instruments
that exist  in this world..including Ocarina,Accordian,
and harp.
the thing is right now,I want to learn playing guitar 
and sing in front of my friends and my loved ones.
I feel so helpless to hold and prick a note while
the guitar is in my hand.
Singing relieves your stress and anger,sadness and 
tears.So sing whatever song that pleases your heart.=)




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