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Do you believe in magic?

I don't believe in magic,
but I believe in miracle.
So much drama in the few weeks and
how time flies,
hostel life
is coming to an end in 3 days.*sobs sobs*
Sometimes I don't know what to believe in,
and yet where do I stand at life,
seeing your own past,mistakes
and everything overthrowing back at you..
just like something that is going back against
what I did and say in the past.
I'm mistake.I'm trouble.As to people,
and myself as well.
I don't know why it seems that,
Life is hard sometimes,and sometimes I feel my
head is lighter,when I feel so damn careless about everything.
There's even a time where I do not fuck care about anything or anyone.
except myself and I have this burden of carrying my own problems
till everything crumbles over me.
The problem is I don't really trust people around me.
They think I'm too weak,they tend to monopolize you in
the things that they see in you as exploitable vulnerable loopholes.
I have a really serious paranoid
that they will say everything that I did is all WRONG
and not being RESPONSIBLE.C'mon.Give me a space to voice out myself.
shit.
If there's so much love in me,there's so much hate too.
I have a fantasy right now.
Quitting this life and go to a new galaxy,start a new whole life
in a new identity,whereby I can use light saber to fight
and see Star Troopers dancing while I sit in my throne.
nah.Palak ku tension abis tok.
What the hell.Star wars in my head right now.
I guess I'm so tension about exams paper.
I wasted 5-7 marks in political science.
Hostel.Friends.Past Love issues.Exams.
[fuck that Singporean guy and the KL guy]
They're still being dickhead bastards.I'm clearly ignoring them,
and I did say my nicest farewell to them..
My parents.Debate.
Fly me to the sky,you'll be forever in my debt.
Let's be B.A.D and R.A.P.E others to the wild.
[Buidling Aimless Destruction and Releasing Anger Passionately Enjoying.]
I'm feeling like oh..so pissed off too right now.
Yes I am.

In conlclusion,there's no such thing as magic but only miracle exists.
Save me from this insane heartbreaking life.I beg you.
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