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The State of Individuality.

What I really meant by individuality and freewill is becoming the authority to choose specific variables, environment and accepting every plausible consequences wholeheartedly; without having the slightest glimpse of feeling reluctant taking its precedent. I am very convinced that our Life is not about doing things in the most "right" or "wrong" way. Learn to bend the rules as it challenges you. Own the moment. You need to get your hands dirty and soul tainted, deal the fuck from it and improvise with whatever limitations you have. Never ever to give up hope, no matter how painful things can damage or break your will.

These past few days,it is super exhausting for me to speak out my mind yet people come to me for ideas, perspective and how to handle their shit.I have my own morale compass and set of beliefs, things to achieve and getting to know an individual characteristics properly, without having a bias judgement or perception.Time is an asset investment, but kindness is an existential branch of Wisdom.

Here is an analogy about it:
You may need to look through and beyond the big picture with its foundations. Not just by merely skimming through the cover and wordings. The epiphany of everything lies between the unconnected dots, unspoken feelings and genuine prospect. The vibe moves you in the most unexpected ways. Humans are in their most perfect spiritual form when they realised that they are constantly sinning and flawed creatures yet crave for improvement instead of indulging themselves in self-destructive behaviours. It is the moment when they fucked things up in their Life but came into a turning point of higher consciousness guiding them the way back as a Hero of their own unique story. The Epic Comeback.

Thus, I do not see any problems with Humans who lowered their Ego to understand their own true nature and weaknesses. I see latter problems whenever they refuse to tolerate pain as a medium or lesson which remind them about real definitions of humility and setbacks in their Life.

Sometimes, we may think all the problems we encountered and temporary people we met are redundant to our Lifetime yet it leads to questions that has infinity of outcomes and plausibility that keep repeating inside the restless mind. To simply agree that paradox exists and we have no definite control over it or fathom over the Omnipotent being. The truth is I always believed that each and every of Human are relevant to their own specific brief lifetime and legacy to pass on. The human Life meaning is indeed the creation of a soul finding its journey back Home. We are all tested accordingly to our own level, inner demon and tolerance of Pain.Life itself is also exquisitely worthwhile to those seeking their own inner peace, solitude and wisdom in everything they do.

{After all,  Life isn't always about what you wanted, but it is rather what you always needed.}

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