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#17.11 Missing you

My dearest abang Ikhwan Faiz.

Being a thousand miles from you makes my heart screams violently for your affections, kisses and touch. Each day that has passed by made me realize that you are my pillar of strength and breathe back Life into me since the day we met until this very moment. I found the missing piece of myself in your soul. You held me when I was in my lowest & most vulnerable and calm me when my mind wanders off berserk and haywire. I can't thank God enough to have you in my Life when I found you. Each time we spend our time together, I feel that the universe has granted me a safe place that makes me feel like I can be whoever I want to be, achieve my dreams and ambition in Life here in Dunya and The Hereafter. Here in Langkawi, I thought the opportunity to be a leader in my work and career is just a mock up, but it turned out to be a start of a new pathway that I never dream of. God has given me so much blessings from the moment I found you, Abang. I dreamt of celebrating our life and everything together ; our solemnization, our first child, our roadtrips, all of our ups and downs, highs and lows.

You are indeed the answer to my prayers and brought positive growth and changes in me. I'm far from perfect and I always fear that my flaws and imperfections will scare you away, but I do my very best to make you feel warmth and happiness as long as I still breath and beyond this worldly time.

I adore your smile and laughter,
I'm addicted to your kisses and touches,
I'm so in love with every inches of your heart and soul.

The next chapter in our Life is something I have been waiting for my whole life. Waiting for you to come home from work every day with a smile or a hug from you. I just want you to know that you are my biggest motivation, strength, confidant, playmate and my soulmate in Life right now. You are so very important and precious for me.

Thank you so much for loving me and having the patience to deal with my sickness, my weirdness, laziness , moodswings and flaws,Abang. Thank you for choosing to love me and nurture me into a better person.

I love you so much very much,beyond my own words and limits to describe. I can't wait to be yours forever.

Ayang,
Munira Jasmin.

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