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#26 Everlasting

 To my love Ikhwan Faiz,

It's funny and how mindblowing God has made us wait till we finally found each other in so many years trying to find a Soulmate/Love.

From the day we haven't met each other yet I  constantly kept wondering whether you existed or not, parts of me was still so much missing and searching for higher and holy purposes in Life. One might say that experience made us wiser and mature, but my past has mended me to be the person I am, till the day I met you. You came and breathe back all the shattered pieces of me and transformed into a whole new person despite I'm going through a dark phase in my life right now. 

Every giggle, smile and laughter shared with you has become my favourite moment in Life. You're the half of my broken soul that I longed for. You're the answer to my sad, lonely and gut wrenching nights. You're my serendipity. My safe haven. 

It has been a long winding road filled with thorns and unexpected moments. There are times my heart and mind couldn't fully comprehend the truth that I would finally came to your life and be united with you as an equal other half. Everything about you seemed familiar and I thought to myself right from start that "I don't want to lose this person in my Life". I missed you so much at the moment of my life. Writing in desperation to tell you that I couldn't wait for our solemnisation day. I cannot wait to spend rest of life as your partner, confidant and mother to our future children. Yes, I dreamt of lazy weekends and late evening with you, cuddling and kissing passionately. Gazing into each other, whispering sweet things to each other and fall in love all over again. Growing old together with our own family. Buttoning your baju melayu or help you pick clothes on special occasions. Praying together and kissing your hands. Exchanging silly jokes and crying together on bad & sad days. In my ups and downs, I just wanted to give you all my love, support and with everything I can, just to see you smile and make you feel at Home.

1 minute spent with you has felt heavenly and divine. Time and space makes no sense because there's so much things to do, share and learn from each other. Time flies even more vigorously when we spent time together like we're lost in a beautiful dream together. 


I adore every single thing and discovered about you ;

Your smiles, laugh, voice, warmth, joy and passion. Everything about you is wondrous.

{ Till death do us apart. Till my heartbeat stops. Till Eternity came and reunite us again and again. And, till the day I hold your hand and vow to never let go.

I will keep going on and on,

To remind us,

That Our love for each other 

is rather divine and exquisite. } 


I love you with every inches of my fucked up, and broken soul.You completed me. 


Forever yours,

Munira Jasmin.



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  1. ikh1July 24, 2021 at 1:26 AM

    To Nur Munira Jasmin,

    I love you with all my heart. Each second i spend with you, make me want to know a bit more about you. Like i keep telling you. you are an angel in disguise for me. i might look like i am hiding my feeling for you. but each time we are together, my heart my soul and my mind is bursting and exploding with a lot of loves and misses. I want you so bad. I want you to be my wife for the rest of our life. I want to make you happy. I want to give everything that i can offer to you. I want to be your world, and the 'one' thing i want is to be with you in this world and the akhirat.

    Munira Jasmin, you give me hope. you give me strength and you make me happy. it's really hard to tell what have you done to me. from someone who keep looking up wondering whether that special one exist, to someone who grateful that his special one is right now getting near to him. the same way you feel, i can't wait to officially make you as my wife. to hold your hand in your up and down. to be with you and build our family together. from the first azan to our newborn and to the next next next azan. and to cherish them and to support them together. you make me feel that we can do this.

    Munira Jasmin,
    Thank you for existing. we are getting nearer. Love you with all my heart and soul.

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