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The road to You

November 2018. I am whole because you breath the air and vibe to love again. I think found my soulmate. The one I adore most in Life now.

All these family drama and people desperately begging for attention, I admit I feel asphyxiated and suffocated, but I have strength and peace to be myself and ignore negativity. I have a bunch of strangers and friends who sees me as who I am inside and let me grow into the person I am.

The truth is if you never lose yourself, you will never know how good it felt to came back to the right path, the right mindset and giving priority to the things you want the most in Life.

I have been using the Internet my whole life and came to know that there are sad, lonely and depressed people begging and hurting others for the sake of attention and false pretense. I have many met many kinds of human, went out with random people, experimenting with their behaviour and do read people's behaviour really well. I have many stories and tales to be shared with others because I also have done a lot of crazy things and adventures my whole life. To the point being misunderstood and feel out of place all the time. It's just I have a vibrant and colourful life. We take lessons from every difficult person we encountered and all the things that happened instead of dwelling in it over and over again.

When there's a genuine friendship and connection, the love and chemistry with each other varies and depends on how far you are willing to be vulnerable, trusting and compromise with each other. With the right partner, you can find solace and security within each other presence. In time, you will see all of the imperfections, flaws and shortcomings as a perfection. Marriage requires effort and responsibility to carry out duties as a team. In order to find the ideal partner you wanted, you will need to learn more about your own limits, beliefs and go through many unpleasant, heart-wrenching and frustrating relationships.From one chapter to another endless cycle of getting hurt and moving on. It is the whole process of learning to be mature and giving attention to the small things that people find it petty and useless.  You will only be able to know what you want in a partner after exploring your limits and level of pain you can endure in a relationship. It is about the journey and destination, not about the numbers of people you dated or who you used to be in the past. You will eventually know how to love yourself and then fall in love with another soul.

I find it easier to explain myself to the whole world than my own flesh, because they will never see Life as the way I see it. They grow bitter and try to bring others down if they have not seen the depth of everything that happened."Being concern" is normal, but judging and making worst assumptions at others simply shows how shallow and fickle you are because of your own unpleasant experience or views in life. We get hurt, upset and angry by people all the time. Only to those know how to find meaning in pain and peace will have the strongest heart and capable to love again.

I am a traveller of this Dunya (world) and I take only what I needed to grow into a real human with empathy and compassion towards ignorant and egoistic people.

I made peace with myself. I made a lot of mistakes along the way, but it gave me wisdom and peace to be who I am today.

It is more than enough and I am grateful.

Life is too short. Do want you want. Be happy by being yourself.

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