Dualism Fuel

As we kissed all night long He wondered in mind; " Will this last forever ?" We let in a few more slow kisses, the tenderness of smooching lips until he resonates his fear I touched his chest and said, " Love, through Heaven and Hell, within a thousand Lifetime that we may or may not have, I will still choose you to latch upon, My whole universe, I came To shine within you Presence My soul breathes on you. We belong in realm of madness. And my madness is US. Forever. My Paradiss. You! "                  -wordlesspeech-

Life is not about yourself and others. It is about how you understand meaning behind the smallest,little and detail things around us.We,human tend to see the biggest and clearest view of all the things that we did (from actions, words and knowlegde) and must have a clear or definite goal. We see problems, hardships and mistakes as a punishment or a way to remind us of what is good and bad. I see Life as a journey to find what is being Human is all about and being rigidly strong as who you are inside, despite nobody understands you. Life is a dedication to make changes in your own ways, pace and capacity. You can shine in whatever you choose to be. See, people. You don't need people to approve and support your thoughts because we need to be self sufficient and kind to ourselves. We need pain to grow. We need to know how to endure the most absurb circumstances and tragic loss for personal enhancement. I think most people complain their life too much. Talks about money, status and hav...

" Your fingers,dear .." I remarked. " What about them, sweetheart ?" He asked. I instinctively reached for his hands and interlaced our fingers together. " They're belong to mine ! " I said after I kissed his lips tenderly. We blushed and hold on even tighter.                  - wordlessspeech -

I'm a girl. I appeared out of nowhere. Fallen in love again, with you. Saw you through years. That night I sat next to you Wondering, "Are you The One?" My mind went whispering "Surprise! He is. Take your time" He looks at me  A smile. I bloomed. I knew, he'll be my Paradise. I love you. -Wordlesspeech- follow me @moonxyle92

The human soul, is funny and delusional. One who expects too much, She/He will be dissappointed if their expectations lack from the outcome. I had spent my whole Lifetime, obeying a perfectionist tradition; And every single mistakes, wrong moves,wrong people, misplacing stuff never missed being counted and recalled. I regret my silence and changed into someone who is very passive-aggresive. Unpredictable and radical. I grew up enduring emotional and physical pain for many,many years.  I was in a very deep stage of depression since I came to know the meaning of failure and how it is like to move on from a death of a loved ones. I do still get episodes of suicidal tendency and being in a short term major depression. I hid it so well that nobody knows I'm hurting very much, everyday. Honestly, it is in my blood to follow rules and order to be succesfull like "the rest". Spent my whole lifetime proving to be the smartest and approval of others, to s...

You see people, you never know what it's like being trapped in mild depression although the stage is no longer suicidal/harmful but you wished to suicide with 100 percent of success rate of Death as an outcome and finally can lie down in a coffin. Resting eternally after all the bullshit you had in your lifetime. I am struggling to live each day and each second, fighting my ways to smile and be happy, to provide others with warmness. That is why I wrote things mostly about depression and human soul. I really want to educate people on the strength of human soul to influence and empower others by having good vibes and spread positive things. I want to grow humanity larger.

"Parang,the game" The fusion of Borneo culture into a card game.A game company, Beast of Borneo based in Kuching created this masterpiece game. Thus, " Parang" the card game has succesfully gotten the crowd into a new dimension of playing and social interacting with people in this smartphone era while still preserving a sense of identity of the Iban culture.The pioneer of its kind. Borneo headhunting card game. A very cool concept. The players has their own unique ways to win the game and collect "Antu Pala" (head trophies) to become the winner. As a matter of fact, the whole idea and design of the game itself stands out and made its objectives as a "get-along-game". and naturally enjoyable for individuals from all walks of Life. Regardless old you are, race and identity is not a problem. The game is very simple to understand and most people learn to become the winner as they played it along. Stay tuned for more info of "Parang", t...

2016! WARNING ! This is a major appreciation post! After the first few months of 2016, I finally managed to escape mental torture by secluding myself alone. Away from toxic negative vibes and suffocatng relationship. I'm proud to say that I'm still sane and feeling alive. Although I gotten myself into many chronic illness and hospitalized a few times, I managed to pull myself up. Again and again, even it's damn tiring. Back to the real deal. These are the list of awesome people whom I dedicated this post for: My two super best friend Choomie and Aiman .(They both saved me from self-destruction by helping me doing a sweet surprise to my mom, which I initiated and keen doing of since my dad's passing) Mr AA (or as he wanted as a sense of mysterious suave charming gentlemen , so let's be sweet and call him Mr. Arsyan . *cough* a soldier in his own ways and a loveable person ) My fellow team members of Puakateam, cosplayers and old buddies since uit...