Dualism Fuel

November 2018. I am whole because you breath the air and vibe to love again. I think found my soulmate. The one I adore most in Life now. All these family drama and people desperately begging for attention, I admit I feel asphyxiated and suffocated, but I have strength and peace to be myself and ignore negativity. I have a bunch of strangers and friends who sees me as who I am inside and let me grow into the person I am. The truth is if you never lose yourself, you will never know how good it felt to came back to the right path, the right mindset and giving priority to the things you want the most in Life. I have been using the Internet my whole life and came to know that there are sad, lonely and depressed people begging and hurting others for the sake of attention and false pretense. I have many met many kinds of human, went out with random people, experimenting with their behaviour and do read people's behaviour really well. I have many stories and tales to be shared with oth...

The epitome of Us Our foretold tale of Love and Stories , You are my epitome of Joy , A supernova , A phenomena , I cannot fathom yet, The begone years taught me, Of Love, Despair and Trust Suffering, yet still alive Holding onto my beliefs intact, To breath you into my life, For once and forever, Of Heavens granting my prayers, To ease my finding along this journey, Full of crazy malady and ironic cycle Oh, dear  beloved muse , You are half of my world,  Half of everything in me Have you thought I'd crawl, I break into pieces, Hit into walls, Get all shattered everywhere, Just to be whole again, At brink of my existence, To complete Our Purpose , As a unit, as a synergy Two beating hearts as one, In the moment I saw Miracle When I saw our Destiny , Of years and endless love, Adventures and precious moments Untill the end of Time , Beyond forever. I belong to you. To us.

I have difficulty in choosing the right title for this post. It is somewhat a miracle to this dark place of mine. My own thought s So, October 2018 huh? I have been pondering if I am growing into something that radiates light and love around me? Am I good enough to love another again? But I already have answers to my own question. Somehow, somewhere In some part of this world There's someone crazy about my smile or being with me. I was deeply moved. Touched. In the most unexpected ways. My soul somehow feel welcomed. It felt like coming to a nice sanctuary. It's like one of the answers to my stupid petty questions. I always told myself: It's not about the Ending , It is always about the Journey and Destination . You will stumble across Millions of Choices, but it leads into one favourable outcome that you had always secretly wished upon, I believed in the Secrets of the Heart now. We don't know it, but we always feel it. We can't see it, but we r...