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Theism (Part 2)

{ Do you have a set of morale compass? What if I tell you that human can rebuild and initiate what, why and who to believe when it comes the Universal force?}

During the Funeral process I just attended, I realized that more people are just there to observe the sins and reputation of others instead of paying respect. I grew up watching these humans using religion to judge others, money and influence among themselves untill the day they died. What exactly they did believed in? Was it by the book? By the mouth?

My father told me, you will die by the way you lived. My theism on what I believe is solely on growth. You are here in this world to screw up and failed miserably, in the pursue finding passion and acceptance. Fuck with everything. Fix it and improvise your soul with time. There is nothing to do by "living the rules" and traditions that binds a family. Family is a place whereby you are happy being yourself, without needing to try hard or feel lost. I beg to differ to this, I grew up either being socially awkward or reserved due to my upbringing and how my parents expected me to be. Kept this journal so I can stay in touch with what I bottled insist for so long.

No, sorry. I don't like living in a broken dysfunctional family. Superficial love. Calculations. Money is God. Reputation is being talked like a wildspread news. I loath them with all my heart.

Maybe 20 years from now, if I'm alive and had made peace with myself to accept that this is a part of growth and lessons to be the person I am going to be one day.

Theism. It is the only resolution to great stories behind failures and losing hope.

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